Surrender

Church was quite eye opening on Sunday. The message was about the power God has to break any chains, & how many of us stay under those chains because we don't surrender. He talked about how we  need to pray for our loved ones that are suffering under these chains, to get on our face & cry out to God. I realize how much I don't do that. . I don't pray that much for my husband. . .sometimes it's like I have just given up on trying. . . I focus on the negative & the past. Yes he hurt me to pieces, yet I am  not helpless. I can turn this over to God. I can get on my knees & pray for my husbands healing. I can pray that he will really surrender this to God & let it go. I know, deep down, he hasn't tried that hard. He will for a bit & then just give in. . .but instead of me sitting here in doubt & fury. . .I need to do what I can. I can't make him stop. I can't make him not want to. .but i can pray. Prayers can change things. . .with God ALL things are possible. . .

"fall on my face begin to scream that I need You. . ..I would drown to be alive in You" Chasing Furies