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This blog is meant to be a safe place for anyone who has to deal with the aftermath of being with a porn addict. I know in today's society it is not a big deal to many, but to some of us, its cheating & we do NOT want it in our marriage. I am one of those women :) This is my safe place, my haven. This is where I will pour out my heart & soul, & be honest. This is a new ministry God has laid on my heart, to reach out to others in this struggle. If you happen to find this blog & are dealing with it too, feel free to comment. Know you are not alone.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I run like the Ocean

I often wonder, am I weak or is this strength? When does fighting become weakness?How many tears must pour out of my eyes before I walk away?
I've been down this path a million times & I wonder. .. why?
As I fight alone, as I bleed below the fading stars, as I fall apart, as the blazing sun scars my eye, I wonder. Am I being the fool? Isn't it time I just. . ..quit? The truth is, I'm tired. I'm weary of looking over my shoulder. I am tired of sleepless nights wondering over words spilling from lying lips. I'm tired of looking in the mirror & realizing there comes a point in ones life when it's their fault. Their fault for staying. For running into the same walls time & time again.
Maybe I really do need admit defeat. To walk away while there is still breath in my lungs & blood in my veins.
I'm stuck in this hurricane & I feel helpless to ever leave it's winds. I am tired of being battered. I'm tired. So tired
I run like the Ocean to find Your shore. . .I'm looking for You" Switchfoot
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